So we are all pretty familiar with the term Lightworker huh? To me it means someone who is in service of the planet, bringing more light into the world. It's a beautiful term and one I've been called many times yet for me personally, it doesn't resonate fully. It makes me feel uncomfortable and not because I don't think I am but because this term only addresses a portion of me. You see, I am actually a shadow or dark worker and have been specialising in this field for over 7 years. It's taken me quite some time to be able to really integrate and own this as the true essence of my being but I am now finally able to and I really want to share what a shadow worker is and actually does and how it fits in with the big picture for the planet. It's very different to just someone who "does shadow work" and I'll tell you how.
Since forever I have been drawn to the darker side of the things. I'm a really deep thinker and feeler and have always had a billion questions about things that aren't so obvious. I usually have a bit of a different or alternative way of looking at things and maybe even what you'd refer to as a non-obvious thinker. My first choice in a movie is always either the psychological thriller or horror movie to see the thinking behind the behaviour, I always wake between 2-3am and find it the most beautiful of times as it is actually when the world is at it's most quiet and the noise has stopped. I am fascinated with docu-series about human behaviour and the trauma that is acted upon if emotions are left undealt with. I prefer the moon and its mysteriousness over the intensity of the sun and the cooler months when the world is a little quieter and darker. I've always wanted to understand truth where it's not obvious and the meaning behind things. This is just how I'm wired and am just naturally more attuned to the shadow world. It's not a "thing I do" but rather the path that has been mapped out by something bigger than me. It's a part of my innate being.
In the past, I've been told by those who don't understand and actually fear their own shadow that because I look at the darker side, I am on a vibrationally lower level to them, I have a poor mindset, I'm extremely negative or even a morbid person. It used to really upset me until I finally stopped judging myself that way. What I now know and want to share with you is what the dark/shadow workers of the world actually do. Firstly, in order to hold a space for others to explore and unveil what remains hidden, the shadow worker MUST have done the SHADOW work on themselves. Quite simply, there is NO OTHER WAY to be able to hold the space for others if you have not looked at this yourself! We have dissected parts of our own ego and found our own personal truth and higher self within it. In this process, we have reduced the fear and judgment around the feelings as being either positive or negative and have an understanding that there is a necessary and vital place for it all. My personal expertise within the shadow realms is being able to hold space for people to cathartically release their emotions. The intense range of emotions does not scare me and I am able to hold even the most intense of emotional release.
Shadow working is all about taking a different path to the light by transmuting the darkness and expelling the fear around it so that the parts of us that remain hidden in these darker places can be brought out into the open. You may actually be really surprised at how many gifts and talents are hiding out in your shadow too because, for whatever reason, there has been a fear of acknowledging them.
As a shadow worker, I am able to gently guide, support and walk with you into your shadow holding the most sacred space for you meet the parts of yourself that you fear the most. It is such an honour and a privilege to witness the vulnerability, authenticity and pureness that is this work. All of my own experience in finding my way to the light by addressing my own shadow through many years of depression, anxiety, suicidal tendancies and attempts, I now see as the ultimate gifts for my understanding, empathy and ability to hold this space for others.
If any of you would like to know more about this work, reach out, I'd love to give you any and all information I can! Understanding, acknowledging and ultimately accepting those parts of you that are hidden in your shadow are where the ultimate level of self-love and acceptance are reached. The dark workers of the world aren't people to be feared or judged, it's just how we find our own and are able to assist others in finding their way to the light.
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Until next time xx